Wednesday, July 26, 2006
"Oh Shut up You Wuss!"
From the sounds of this title you must have guessed how maxed out I am at this point.. Yes, folks things are starting to bulid up for me and that exact phrase came out of my mouth tonight at my soccer game to this guy who was being rather lame. I should point out that right before that remark came out of my big mouth I had accidently pushed him. This time I really didn't mean to do it. And even before this I had kicked him in the foot. I apologized profusely but the ass was making a huge deal about it. So after that last incident I basically had diarrhea coming out of my mouth at full force. I was told the week before that I am too nice and that I don't have a mean bone in my body. ummm guess again folks... He was wrong.. Lately, I have had this shit list that has been growing. The first people on my shit list was the Apple store(god help their souls) then it was the bank(it was banking error and my work's fault. Too much to get into but you can probably use your imagination once again), and now this guy tonight. he was a trip! I hate having to get upset at people but it really got to me. Maybe things are finally starting to wear on me and my patience is slowly dwindling away. And I must be turning into raging bitch! LOl.. well not really. I am just kidding at this point. There are definitely things in my life that are causing me to have a shit list these days. So i must like to take things out on other people and companies... Not good.. I am a little irritated at this point and i realize things have to be taken down a notch.
Saturday, July 22, 2006
"And she plays phone tag mom-all of the time!"
My nanny diaries saga must continue.
There are many things that a nanny must do in order to keep up with everything in the general household life. It's actually pretty tough at times having to juggle "mom" time with the kids and getting the daily chores done. So in some sense I feel like a housewife except for the 4 karat rock on my hand and my "plastic" body... (I know that was pretty rude.. but I had to interject that somehow. Not all housewives have that 4 karat ring and a plastic body.. Just where I roll these days.) My expectations are pretty high to some degree having to make sure "things" are being picked up, the laundry is done, and the dishes are taken care of... All of this in a full day along with the child rearing responsibilities. In my case the mother is around and I tend to take in whatever she doesn't have time because of her busy schedule of shopping and "appointments." So everything that I mentioned above plus more from time to time.
It fries me when I hear their mom coming to telling me that i talk way too much on the phone. Usually when i am on the phone, there is a consistency of me folding and putting away laundry or dishes being done, etc... And it's rare to find me picking up my phone and calling up a friend. It's usuallly me answering my phone and making short conversation with people. Yes, it's hard to believe I have short conversations with people on the phone.. But it's true. And then to make things worse, **** told her mom that i don't spend enough quality time with them because I am on the phone. I called bullshit! Do you realize that there is no happy medium when it comes to their mom because one minute the dishes and laundry all need to be done first before I hang out with the kids or it's the other way around. Grrr....Does she realize how much time I spend with them. And these kids aren't the easiest to motivate to go and do thngs because their mom is around.. Plus they know what buttons to push... they basically have their parents around their tiny little fingers.. I find myself pulling my hair out of my head beccause **** is crying and won't get his clothes on to go somewhere... Should I also mention that i am the one coordinating their social calender.. ie play dates... hmmmm... I am actually making sure that they get to have fun with their own friends.. Just because the babysitter ***** taught them how to play tennis and hold a tennis racket doesn't mean that i do that sort of stuff with them on a regular basis.. Who taught **** how to dive in the pool? Or what about tredding water... What about sitting down with her and working on the newspaper for days.. And the projects for school?! Or teaching them how to ride a bike........hmmmm.. The list could go on for days on what I do with these kids.. To make that comment about my phone next to my ear all of the time.. Ridiculous!!! She doesn't fully understand what I do on a daily basis because she is not always there to see those days go down. Those well-behaved kids that I get great comments about are because of me.. I hate to say it but it's true. i have taken time and energy to get them where they are today. And not all nannies invest this much time and energy into their charges but I have.. I am damn proud of it!! Because of me for this short time in their lives, they will have some kind of small responsibility or respect for their elders.....
Bleh.. Phone.. PHone.. She can stone me for using the phone...She just doesn't look at the bigger picture times because she is caught up with more of her drama....
There are many things that a nanny must do in order to keep up with everything in the general household life. It's actually pretty tough at times having to juggle "mom" time with the kids and getting the daily chores done. So in some sense I feel like a housewife except for the 4 karat rock on my hand and my "plastic" body... (I know that was pretty rude.. but I had to interject that somehow. Not all housewives have that 4 karat ring and a plastic body.. Just where I roll these days.) My expectations are pretty high to some degree having to make sure "things" are being picked up, the laundry is done, and the dishes are taken care of... All of this in a full day along with the child rearing responsibilities. In my case the mother is around and I tend to take in whatever she doesn't have time because of her busy schedule of shopping and "appointments." So everything that I mentioned above plus more from time to time.
It fries me when I hear their mom coming to telling me that i talk way too much on the phone. Usually when i am on the phone, there is a consistency of me folding and putting away laundry or dishes being done, etc... And it's rare to find me picking up my phone and calling up a friend. It's usuallly me answering my phone and making short conversation with people. Yes, it's hard to believe I have short conversations with people on the phone.. But it's true. And then to make things worse, **** told her mom that i don't spend enough quality time with them because I am on the phone. I called bullshit! Do you realize that there is no happy medium when it comes to their mom because one minute the dishes and laundry all need to be done first before I hang out with the kids or it's the other way around. Grrr....Does she realize how much time I spend with them. And these kids aren't the easiest to motivate to go and do thngs because their mom is around.. Plus they know what buttons to push... they basically have their parents around their tiny little fingers.. I find myself pulling my hair out of my head beccause **** is crying and won't get his clothes on to go somewhere... Should I also mention that i am the one coordinating their social calender.. ie play dates... hmmmm... I am actually making sure that they get to have fun with their own friends.. Just because the babysitter ***** taught them how to play tennis and hold a tennis racket doesn't mean that i do that sort of stuff with them on a regular basis.. Who taught **** how to dive in the pool? Or what about tredding water... What about sitting down with her and working on the newspaper for days.. And the projects for school?! Or teaching them how to ride a bike........hmmmm.. The list could go on for days on what I do with these kids.. To make that comment about my phone next to my ear all of the time.. Ridiculous!!! She doesn't fully understand what I do on a daily basis because she is not always there to see those days go down. Those well-behaved kids that I get great comments about are because of me.. I hate to say it but it's true. i have taken time and energy to get them where they are today. And not all nannies invest this much time and energy into their charges but I have.. I am damn proud of it!! Because of me for this short time in their lives, they will have some kind of small responsibility or respect for their elders.....
Bleh.. Phone.. PHone.. She can stone me for using the phone...She just doesn't look at the bigger picture times because she is caught up with more of her drama....
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Shopping for Numbness...
I posted the picture really late last night but wanted to continue on this rather invigorating morning. With three different alarms going off at 7:15 and the third one going off in a whole other room i am rearing to go..(Well now I am because it's 830 in the morning..) Now i sit in front of my laptop and think about all of what i have to look forward to this fine day. Well, to say the least I have not had tons of energy to do the thngs that i normally do at work the past few days. it has been difficult for me to really stay focus on taking care of 4 other people due to my own stresses. but i managed to fold and put away 5 loads of laundry, load and unload the dishwasher, and fertilize parts of the yard yesterday.. I did all of this in between being a parent to two kids. It's tiring but even more when i am not feeling like I want to do it. Through all of the madness at work I realized a few things...
1. WE should all live everyday to the fullest. 2. don't sweat the small things..3. People will come and go out of your life but the special ones will stay close to your heart forever...4.Letting your emotions out and blaring Neil diamond in the car is definite fix. 5. retail therapy only goes so far. Just makes your pocket book a little lighter. 6. Patience is DEFINITE VIRTUE.. Especially when you are not in the mood to use the patience that you were given. 7. Poop and pee can only make things worse for a child..(I can not really expand on that at the moment.. To say the least I can't wait to write a paper on this..) 8. My love can only go so far and being a teacher to two little ones at the moment will only last for so long. 9. Teaching your child manners is the best thing in the world...10. I love my sleep these days.. Naps included PN....11. alcohol gives anyone a terrible hangover the next day.. And dragging ass all the next day is not the greatest....12. Plastic bodies should be outlawed at the swimming pool.....13. Getting to see Wutang back together in SF and partying iit up with the Sf crew will let a few stressers go out the door....14.Whispering sweet nothings into the phone....15. All day dance parties is a true remedy for being down....16. Baby-baby-baby-baby...Not to worry Betts family.. not me...17.I apparently have a doppleganger running around seattle..(RF you are not the only one with a doppleganger.) 18. Reminiscing with MM about being carried out of club with her because we could barely walk on our own two feet brought me back to last summer. My korean side came out that night......19. I am not the only one falling down stairs or tripping and falling...20.I am getting free cable in my room. 21. Watch out world, here I come! 22. I should have practiced my keg stands last weekend.... have not done one since my 21st birthday.
I know some of these don't make a lot of sense.. So just use your imagination and figure those "hard to get" ones out. A shout out goes to my auntie...I know you are keeping a good eye on me.. Love you...
Now back to getting ready for the day.. I have to be somewhere at 10 so I must be ready to go in a few..
1. WE should all live everyday to the fullest. 2. don't sweat the small things..3. People will come and go out of your life but the special ones will stay close to your heart forever...4.Letting your emotions out and blaring Neil diamond in the car is definite fix. 5. retail therapy only goes so far. Just makes your pocket book a little lighter. 6. Patience is DEFINITE VIRTUE.. Especially when you are not in the mood to use the patience that you were given. 7. Poop and pee can only make things worse for a child..(I can not really expand on that at the moment.. To say the least I can't wait to write a paper on this..) 8. My love can only go so far and being a teacher to two little ones at the moment will only last for so long. 9. Teaching your child manners is the best thing in the world...10. I love my sleep these days.. Naps included PN....11. alcohol gives anyone a terrible hangover the next day.. And dragging ass all the next day is not the greatest....12. Plastic bodies should be outlawed at the swimming pool.....13. Getting to see Wutang back together in SF and partying iit up with the Sf crew will let a few stressers go out the door....14.Whispering sweet nothings into the phone....15. All day dance parties is a true remedy for being down....16. Baby-baby-baby-baby...Not to worry Betts family.. not me...17.I apparently have a doppleganger running around seattle..(RF you are not the only one with a doppleganger.) 18. Reminiscing with MM about being carried out of club with her because we could barely walk on our own two feet brought me back to last summer. My korean side came out that night......19. I am not the only one falling down stairs or tripping and falling...20.I am getting free cable in my room. 21. Watch out world, here I come! 22. I should have practiced my keg stands last weekend.... have not done one since my 21st birthday.
I know some of these don't make a lot of sense.. So just use your imagination and figure those "hard to get" ones out. A shout out goes to my auntie...I know you are keeping a good eye on me.. Love you...
Now back to getting ready for the day.. I have to be somewhere at 10 so I must be ready to go in a few..
Monday, July 17, 2006
"Tess, I don't kiss and tell......"
It occurred to me this morning, that when I hang out with certain people my true "Korean" side tends to come out. For those who are unfamilar with that term i am refering to the non-stop drunken madness that usually occurs at all hours of the day and night. If you were to go out in Korea, there is no such think as 1:30 am last calls and closed container laws to be heard of in sight. And throwing up on the street usually doesn't stop them from drinking. it's usually break time and then back to the constant madness. I tried that one night and found myself so hung over that i could barely see straight the next day. Anyways, that night of fun lasted quite a long time but to some certain people's perspective it ended in drama. I was too out of it really care that night. I told PN to relax and let it go. But i guess it's hard to do at times. My night of getting to let loose was a blast and running into old "friends" was even more memorable for me. The last part of the night was me getting upset at the taxi driver and then treating him like one of my little charges. I guess my aggressiveness tends to come out when I am intoxicated. After that taxi ride a couple of us tried to walk to the McDonalds but we could not pin point the place. So we ended up at the local 76 station eating microwavable mac and cheese heating up burritos. All said and done, the night was great. These people can come out and have a blast no matter what. (Even pn.) It's different with these people.. It's not just a friendship that i can count on, it's more than that to me. These people are my "Family." I am lucky to be part of such a large family that I can let loose with once in a blue moon. We can be ourselves around eachother and know that we all have unique distintive personalities to bring into this large family.
Pn, you know I will always give you a hard time about things because I know I can. But you can tell me when to stop. I love ya and thats why I can do that. IT's no excuse but you know if i was in similar situation you would do the same.....YOu are a burst of sunshine in my life and can put me into my place if need be.. You are a great listener and can dish out good advice if needbe....
Pn, you know I will always give you a hard time about things because I know I can. But you can tell me when to stop. I love ya and thats why I can do that. IT's no excuse but you know if i was in similar situation you would do the same.....YOu are a burst of sunshine in my life and can put me into my place if need be.. You are a great listener and can dish out good advice if needbe....
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